Falling in Love

Never push yourself into loving someone,
because it is called "Falling In Love"
You must fall not push / force
yourself to someone.

Love mustn't be rushed it takes time...
but

It always depends on the person...

Rose

Life for me is like a Rose...

going up has thorns

But

if you will work hard and

will never give up

you will reach the flower.

Mistakes

You can do a lot of mistakes in your life..

But eventually, you'll end up going to the right path

Only if you'll learn from it.


Alfred John B. Lajom

Pourquoi danser?

Les gens dansent
parce que la danse
peut changer les choses


Vous pouvez exprimer
vos sentiments et de faire
ce que vous voulez

Valentines Day 2012

Vanessa Marie F. Delfin,
Happy Valentine’s day my love. Though we are many miles apart, I know nothing can stand in our way to love each other (more and more each day). Despite the challenges we have in our life, I know we can always find a way to out-stand them. Valentine’s Day is for people who truly love each other no matter how far the distance is, the important thing is that our love is true. You are my true love, my soul mate and my best friend. Thank you because you are always there with me talking to me each day, helping me solve my problems, reminding me things I have to remember, and for helping me with everything. A glimpse of your smile each day makes me so happy.  I love you so much baby and I will love you forevermore...
-Alfred John B. Lajom

Minsan may Isang Puta (2007)

This is an original piece by Ms. Mike Portes

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko puta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Ang bango-bango ko daw, sariwa at makinis. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito naletse ang kinabukasan ko. Tara makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo.

Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin, nagkagusto, naakit.

Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman silang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Masakit alalahanin, iniisip ko na lang na kase di sila taga rito, siguro talagang ganoon. Tatlong malilibog na foreigners ang namyesta sa katawan ko, na-rape daw ako.

Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makakalimutan. Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Tinulungan nya kasi akong makalimutan yung mga sadistang Hapon at Coñotics. Kase, ibang-iba ang hagod niya. Umiikot ang mundo ko sa tuwing ginagamit niya ako. Ibang klase siya mag-sorry, lalo pa at kinupkop niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko.

Parating ang dami naming regalo - may chocolates, yosi, ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya, alam kong ginagamit nya lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit. Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa! Hanggang ngayon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatakbuhan ko. 'Yun nga lang, lahat ng bagay may kapalit. Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami.

Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy na kaligayahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay. P*** ng I**! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, muntik na akong malaspag. Ang daming nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Patalsikin ko na daw. Sa tulong ng mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang animal pero ang hirap magsimula.

Masyado na kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya. Lubog na lubog pa kami sa utang, kulang ata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin.

Sinikap naming lahat maging maganda ang buhay namin. Ayun, mga nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi ang mga anak ko. Yung iba nag-US, Europe. 'Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi, masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy usok ako.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalagayan namin, siya din ang dami ng mga anak ko na namamantala sa kabuhayan at kayaman na itinatabi ko para sa punyetang kinabukasan naming lahat. Dumating ang panahon na di na kami halos makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap.

Ang di ko inaakala ay mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Napakasakit tanggapin na malinlang. Akala ko ay makakakita ako ng magiging kasama sa buhay sa mga ahas na ipinakilala ng mga anak ko Hindi pala. Ang tanga ko talaga. Binugaw ako ng sarili kong mga anak kapalit ng kwarta at pansamantalang ginhawa na nais nilang matamasa.

Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa aking mga anak. Wala akong ibang yaman kundi ganda ko. Pinagamit ko na lang ng pinagamit ang sarili ko, basta maginhawa lang ang mga anak ko.

Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. Puta na kase ang isang magandang tulad ko.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpuputa kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki. Kulang na kulang. Paano na lang ang mga anak ko naiwan sa aking punyetang puder? Baka di na ako balikan o bisitahin ng mga nag-abroad kong mga anak. Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama ko lang ang pagmamahal ng mga anak ko. Malaman nila na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa kanila.

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko, namamayagpag kahit saan sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawin. Tama man o mali. Proud ako sa kanila. Kaso sila, kabaligtaran ang nararamdaman para sa akin.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw. Ni di nga ako kinikilalang ina. Halos lahat sila galit sa isa't isa. Walang gusto magtulungan, naghihilahan pa. Ang dami ko ng pasakit na tiniis pero walang sasakit pa nung sarili kong mga anak ang nagbugaw sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko. Masyado silang nasanay sa sarap ng buhay. Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Isang buwan pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taong darating. Ngayon pa lang usap usapan na ang susunod na pagbubugaw ng ilan sa mga anak ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin, ipaglaban naman nila ako. Gusto kong isigaw: "INA NINYO AKO! MAHALIN NYO NAMAN AKO!"

Sige, dumadrama na ako. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako.

Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

Pilipinas nga pala.

 

 

 

posted by: Alfred John B. Lajom 

My Angel (2nd Anniversary Special)

When I first met you, I saw how beautiful you are. In times of my downfall you were there for me, you made me feel that everything is going to be alright.

By that time, I know already that God sent you to me. He gave me my life back. You had the most impeccable timing when I desperately needed someone. God has sent me my angel, and that is you! You have touched my heart with your loving hands, you made me smile every single day, you made me feel that I am something important and you made me feel that I am loved.

Then later, we became very close friends. We go home together from school, laugh at each other's corny jokes, and laugh at so many silly and crazy things. You know how special you are to me; you became my best friend and a close partner.

Then, I unexpectedly fell in love with you. In my past life, I have failed in choosing the right one but then you came; I never expected that it was you, the right person who will be always there for me, the person who will love me more than anything.

I am very thankful to God for giving me my angel. I know that you always hear from me that I love you

BUT…

          The truth is…

I’m really desperately madly deeply in love with you!

I’m happy in simple ways that you do; just seeing you smile makes me the happiest person in the world. Our love is neither based on the time we have spent nor the gifts we have given to each other. Our love is true, honest, and happy. I've waited long for this time to finally be settled to a woman who will always be there for me, who will care for me and most of all who will love me with all her heart.

Now that I have you, I want you to know THAT I LOVE YOU WITH MY WHOLE HEART AND IM NEVER LETTING YOU FLY AWAY MY ANGEL. Not like in fairy tales, my love for you doesn't have a happy ending… It’s simply because my love for you won’t end at all.

Happy 2nd Anniversary Vanessa Marie F. Delfin

by: Alfred John B. Lajom

AKING MUNTING PASKO

Aking Munting Pasko

Nalalapit nanaman ang pasko,
Ang pasko kung saan ika'y malayo.

Tuwing sasapit ang pasko,
Ang nais ko'y makasama mo.

Ang munti mong ngiti,
Ang mapupula mong labi,
Ay ang aking minimithi.

Sana may pasko sa aking buhay,
na ika'y aking kaakbay.

Sana dumating ang pasko na ang iyong mga kamay
Ay nakakapit sa mga puwang ng aking mga kamay.

Nais kong maramdaman ang iyong yakap
Sa malamig na paskong lahat ay may ka-akap.

Sana dumating ang araw na ika'y magpapasko
At nagdiriwang kasama ko.

Mahal kita at ako'y maghhintay sa paskong aking pangarap
Hanggang sa panahong ang diyos ay nasa aking harap.

Aking munting pasko, sana'y dumating ka na......

by: Alfred John B. Lajom

My Mental Block

M.E.N.T.A.L   B.L.O.C.K

by: Alfred John B. Lajom

I'm like a lightning, not knowing which where to strike

I'm like a glass bottle without anything inside

hellacious hollow horrid

I'm like a sinking ship in the Pacific striving for land

I'm the greatest Captain without a crew

sardonic sloppy submissive

I'm like an Afghan Hound, hiding in an astonishing body

I'm like a blazing fire that burns all in range

clueless confused curious

I'm like a fallen angel, dumped by the skies

I'm like a raging bull, ready to lead a macho

dumb damaged damned

I'm a wizard throwing winds of magic

I'm one with two halves

odd opaque obsolete

I'm a speedster, stopped by an enormous block

A block that cannot be pushed by my mortality

A block that surrounds my entire entity

I'm not functioning, baffled, stuck

This is my

 MENTAL BLOCK

-Alfred John B. Lajom

i love you with all my heart

I may not be the best man you've met,

I may not be an angel like,

I may be hard-headed,

I may be far away,

But I assure you,

that I love you with all my heart and

I promise that when we are together again,

When you are within my reach,

When you are here in my arms,

When my lips touches yours

When my hands are holding yours

When my eyes are looking straight to yours

When I see your smile,

Nevermore shall you be lonely

Nevermore shall you be sad

Nevermore shall you be alone

Nevermore shall we be apart

for this i promise you my heart.

I love you with all my heart.

-Alfred John B. Lajom

"I love you (my future wife)"

"I love you (my future wife)"

by: Alfred John Lajom

You are my source of life

and I want you to be my wife.

You give me endless love

that surrounds me freely like a dove.

You are my teacher who corrects my mistakes,

you are my clock who is always there when I wake,

you are my doctor who gives care for me

but you always charge me for free.

I love you with all my heart.

Our love is like an art

that we both take part.

You are the one who showed me the light

and saved me from my fright.

I'm sorry for the cracked walls,

but I will make our walls into halls.

So please forgive me,

I swear to make this cracks flee.

I love you with all my heart.

I will build new chart

to present a better future to you.

I will assure you

that you will get the best,

to rip the cracks on your chest.

I will make my arms your vest,

to protect you with my very best.

I love you Vanessa.

I will open the umbrella,

to protect your heart

and will never hurt it again.

No tears shall be shed,

No sadness shall be lend,

because I will spend

the rest of my life,

loving you my future wife.

-Alfred John B. Lajom

Internet line connection and love

I am one of many who has longdistance relationships, It is really difficult to be far from the one you love. Difficult in thimes that I want to hug her, in times thaT i want to kiss her or even just to hold her soft small hands. Eventhough it is very difficult for us we always find ways to connect and hang in our relationship. We use internet to connect with each other and every night (everyday in her case) we chat and use video call so that we can talk and see each other. I have faith in my capability to love her even if we have a long distance relationship. I find her perfect for me, she's kind, caring, understanding, and loving person. All the good things i can think of is with her, she might not seem perfect to the eyes of anyone because of the saying that ''no one is perfect'' but for me she'snall perfect. I am very lucky to find such person who takes care of me even we have long distance relationship, and the most important is that I know that she is honest and loyal. That is the most important part because if you know that she is honest and loyal then you can trust her fully! Trust is one of the most important part of a relationship.

Last week is the start of stepping half of my foot in a cliff. I lost internet and my family was complaining everyday to the connection of our internet. Since then, I can feel how much i really miss her, sometimes I hug my pillow so tight wishing that it was her I'm hugging. Its been a week without internet and not seeing her but for me its like eternity. My mom paid for an expensive 3g in the Ipad so i can chat with her, that is a good thing but no cam :(..

Right now its our monthsary and I cant even see her. Even if we are in this situation our love for each other never fades away. I love her no matter what happen. I do not believe in the saying that anything that is ''too much'' is bad. I believe if you can give more than 100% of love to your love one then why not?

I dedicate this article to her for our monthsary, I love you no matter how many miles you are away from me. My love for you will never change!

-Alfred John B. Lajom

Me & You

When there is "salt" there is "pepper",

When there is "cereal" there is "milk",

When there is "day" there is "night",

When there is ME there is YOU. ♥ 

-Alfred John B. Lajom

gravity vs love - AE

Gravitation 
is not responsible 
for people falling in love.  


~Albert Einstein

hunger for love -MT

The hunger for love
 is much more difficult
 to remove than 
the hunger for bread.  


~Mother Teresa